Oh September!! I’m not even sure where to begin….
I’ve never looked forward to end month like I did September! Jeeeezz.. I’ve never been so thankful for the small things in life; walking, turning in bed, brushing MY teeth MYSELF, sitting up unaided, doing bathroom breaks on own…EH SEPTEMBERRRR!!!
I’ve been in bed, not able to turn…lying on my back (a position which had never gotten sleep comfortably) hoping I’ll get a little sleep tonight, praying that the month will go by really fast so that I see if my body will actually recuperate as the doctor and mum say….. God says He’s got this. I’m believing for the best even when it’s hard.
The other day I made two baby steps and my heart skipped with sooooo much joy! “I’m not lame,” I grinned to self. These tiny things matter!! A few days later, mum came to towel me and I challenged her that i could walk to the bathroom so we have a real bath…I felt so full energy and faith. In my little heart, I spoke to God and warned Him not to put His name to shame because I was trusting Him to walk me to the bathroom. She almost said no, but I had already stood up, waiting to hold her hand and walk…. I WALKED! Don’t ask me how, because I honestly have no answer. I WALKED to the bathroom, mum got me a chair and I had my evening bath in the right place. Much as I was getting tired, I didn’t complain because I was THRILLED!! Never in my life have I practically believed the phrase, “GOD’S GOT THIS!!!” After the bath, I WALKED back to the room and cried… GOD!!! His things are not to be understood by mortal man. Soon as I sat on the bed, I called and texted everyone that I could and broke the news…it felt like I had made it to heaven!! Sophy reminded me that God’s promises are true and that in her conversation with Him, He’d asked her to encourage me not to doubt that He is able. I almost thought I wasn’t the one in my skin. It felt new!! I can’t explain or express it…everytime I try, I just cry!
That night in bed, I turned and slept comfortably on my tummy! The day was full of miracles!! I was witnessing God’s hand at work LIVE! Forget that business of being told…it was me! Mere flesh…I was really overwhelmed. I grabbed my broken tab and read the 23rd psalm. He surely is My SHEPHERD. Not mommy’s, or Sophy’s or Yuhi’s…. God had held my hand and taken me to the streams of cool waters and here I was quenching my thirst. Undeserving Jinny!!!!!! God told me He’s got this, and He surely did have this!!! Next day, I got up a bit late, had my usual bowl of cereal and asked to be taken to the sitting room to watch television. Everyone knows the most I watch is the news. But here I was, asking to watch telly! Truth be told, I simply wanted to walk again. I was thrilled! I couldn’t stay in that bed another minute when I had a way to get out…I held onto someone and limped in pain to the sitting room. I didn’t even switch the telly on. LOL. I sat, texting and reading a few things online. When mommy found me, I was tired of sitting…my chest hurt like I’d been sat on by huge bags of stones. She wasn’t amused. She told me to take a day at a time and not strain my body. Who was she kidding?? I had to celebrate! She walked me back to bed and I dozed off rather quickly…I was knackered! I kept limping the rest of the days and one Sunday evening I sat out counting stars….it felt so amazing feeling the dusty breeze again! I wasn’t confined to bed anymore….I literally felt SET FREE! Consequently, I kept twisting and turning in bed and yes, I could now sleep on all sides. Yeah, even the side with the fractured leg. It hurt a little but it was exciting not just lying on my back day in, day out.
All these changes were exciting! I began to thank God for EVERY part of my body. God was restoring me as He promised! My brother came and assured me how my days as a princess were numbered. LOL. come to think of it, I had actually been living like a princess… I was so lucky to have so much love around me. Mum actually commented that I have many friends and I owe them! I really do! I’ll never be able to thank everyone as much but I’m grateful. I appreciate all the love everyone of you have shown. The visits that turned into late night talks, the noise you made in that room, the singing and karaoke that woke mommy up, the little favors, passing me pillows that were in arms reach, the games you recommended, the airtime and bundles, helping me stretch and sit up, bringing your little ones to make me smile and challenge me to sit up and walk, the tough love that made me cry, the phone calls, the social media mentions and PMs, the push to blog….. the list goes on and on….I owe you all! THANK YOU! May God reward you in even greater measure.
Now, I can have a hearty laugh and not feel any pain or fear that I’ll feel it later…. God has really been FAITHFUL! After many days of limping with pain and not giving up, I can now WALK! I CAN WALK UNAIDED, WITH NO PAIN! Who knew?? I honestly had lost hope at some point..I was beginning to learn to accept to being a cabbage. I know not another description of the helpless state in which was… I questioned God, I cried myself to sleep on some nights, people tried to encourage me but it was hard….sometimes I wondered if they knew the state in which I was beneath the blanket. The fractures beneath the smile I wore…the tears behind the laughter when guests left…I was breaking, my spirit was rooting. I’d lost hope….but I remember warning God not to shame His daughter. I mean, how was I not going to walk and yet God had promised to heal me?? It was really hard at some point until I chose to lay it all at the cross and boy, didn’t work??
I’ve learnt not to worry. I’ve learnt to lay myself down and let God. I’ve learnt that faith in God is the best way to live.. there’s no other way! A few days ago,I needed to use the bathroom and when called, nobody came to sort walk and yet my bowels were giving way….so I stood up to walk. I WALKED with a slight limp and managed. It was the grace of God. He definitely deafened the ears of those who I called because He knew I didn’t need them. I had Him..I walked in faith and He didn’t let me down. GOD has continuously overwhelmed me!!!! As days came by, I walked with a slight limp until I walked straight. With no limp, no pain and no support!!
I honestly am overwhelmed by God’s love! I can’t lie that I have been prayerful or behaved like a saint, NO! Far from it.God has just shown and taught me that HE IS GOD! He has healed me!! I can’t help crying everytime I realize that I’m no longer bedridden. I sit, eat, walk, do everything on my own. God has really been FAITHFUL!
I had my final review on Monday 5th of October. The doctor says I’ve recovered really well and fast and he’s given me the green light. Woohoooooo. You have no idea how excited I am. I can’t wait to walk to town despite that I have pending minor surgery. I AM HEALED!! Time for that bungee jump!
Let me first take this in……